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getting back to normal with the foot. an insight into how old age view money and spending

1 Jun

london 1.15pm 23.9C sunny thursday 2017

i have had my follow up hospital appointment in the fracture clinic this morning. the foot has healed so well, that the doctor says i can get rid of the surgical boot, and even the crutches. or when i said i would like to keep the crutches he said maybe have one.

he sent me to see the physiotherapist to get instructions on how to exercise that foot. and it was during the session with the therapist that i realised,  from what he said, that the time to not put pressure on the foot is at an end. from now on, the foot has to be worked on to get it back to normal use. there is a time to take pressure off it entirely, when the bone was healing but once healed, it is important not to carry on that no pressure kids glove treatment.

it is a danger that the patient gets too used to molly coddling the foot, but it is time to change tac and get that foot working … hence the exercises that i have to do two times a day… a set of 4 exercises that would make me put an  evenly spread  pressure on the foot whereas now because the ball of the foot is still tender i tend to not put my foot flat down. in fact, if i dont use it i shall lose it. i had a chance to put my leg close together and i can see the muscles of the left leg was so much smaller and not as muscular as my right leg. even in such a short time as 6wks, the effect is showing.

it makes me realise i should go back to the gym and start body building. i had a look at my arms and saw that they are much thinner than i remembered them… 

i saw this article today in the daily mail, one very honest writer telling of how even though she is very comfortably off, she is like a miser when it comes to spending, and confirming the old adage that we turn miserly as we age. she says she had seen how old people she knows turn miserly and vowed she wont be like them, and now she finds she is turning into them.  i think there is a lot of truth in what she says… and she is being very honest in seeing it in herself and writing about it. it is not something that old people may wish others to see.

she gives some reasons why she feels that way… and one of them , that she knows what those things used to  cost in the old days… that the prices now are like exorbitant to her and she refuse to get them now. that seems possible as an explanation.

but she did not mention another reason that might be quite high in the list of refusing to buy things now. and that is not to be wasteful. she says she can well afford to put up the heating, but wont… it can be argued that she does not want to waste energy wastefully heating up the room. she think she is just being miserly. but not wanting to waste is a good reason i think.

and i wonder when we grow old, we tend to not bother with our looks, hence she writes about  not bothering to buy fashionable clothes and buying from primark instead or go to the hairdressers,(it seems joanna lumley cuts and dyes her own hair. if so she is really good at it, because she always looks so well turnout) or even bother with makeup…or use the cheapest moisturiser as we realise they all work the same. i mean these are really legit reasons not to spend money on those things. so it looks like some of the things may not be due to being miserly, just being savvy about goods and services and getting our money’s worth. in other words we have seen through the advertising hype and able to see the real worth of things and alter the way we spend. as usual, there is a line between being frugal and being miserly… it is a fine line. 

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good morning

2 May

london 9.51am 11C sunny tuesday 2017

i get the wordpress reader and there is this 10 countries with the highest male expectancy. females live longer, 84yrs as opposed to males 80yrs. interesting to find singapore there. the oriental stock and the nordic stock seems to be long lived.

we are all familiar with japan’s old people. but it is switzerland that tops male expectancy. but  not by much. so generally i would  say all 10 countries have about equal footing.

though to have too many old people is like a poisoned chalice. it is not all that great for the country or even for the families of the old , though good for the individuals concerned but not always. some may suffer so much they might long for death. the old age statistics is like a time bomb as the bulging age group in the graph moves right leaving fewer ones working to pay for them. at first, when i saw this article i thought how nice to know which countries have their old people live so long. sounds like it is a success… to provide conditions where their people can live so long. but on second thoughts, u realise it is not all that great. these countries will struggle to afford all these old people with their increasing burden of health and long term care. 

but enough of those gloomy thoughts on this bright sunny day. let us just enjoy the moment. and have another cup of coffee. 

good afternoon 3.47pm 15C cloudy. i have quite an enjoyable time shopping for chicken and pork and veg. i have found the best combination of buses and distance from the bus stop to decide which tesco is best to shop at. it is the kennington tesco. even though it involves two changes of buses, the tesco is a short walk from the bus stops. and it has trolleys which i can use as a crutch. and it has fruits that u can pick up. meant to be for kids, but hey, for us kidless families, why shouldn’t we pick them up too. but i find out i can put the chicken in the backpack and use the crutches to carry the pork, and celery. so this way i can carry close to 4-5kg without any trouble at all.

so i finally was able to roast a chicken and have a roast dinner. cooking it in the oven is effortless. its quite a simple pleasure. not sure if most people are aware of it, or not. i get a lot of pleasure out of it. the cooking and the eating of it. the eating of it will continue for a few more meals yet, as i find different ways of making dishes out of it.

i think those people who dont learn how to cook lose a great deal when they grow older. the sense of independence where u can live off what u cook instead of relying on another is priceless. for those who are so pampered , or are so rich they have cooks and butlers to cater for their every need, and never learn these simple life skills, or who have relied on their wives to cook for them, to find themselves entirely in hopeless need when the wives die… that skill of being able to look after yourself when everyone has died on you is a very happy life skill. 

gout ( latest, not gout, it is an infection.)

23 Mar

london 2.26pm thursday 2017 11C cloudy .

i have been diagnosed with gout. i saw the doctor yesterday wednesday 22nd,at about 3.15pm. it all started on tuesday but only got worse overnight so that by wednesday morning i was so bad, simon offered to take me to the surgery by car. it was raining too, so i was rather glad for the lift. we hope to be seen straight away , a forlorn hope, they were all busy, of course,so the receptionist said go home and the doctor will call me. he called me about 1.30pm, and said he can fit me in at 3.15pm the same day.

 what a strange thing to have, in that i always thought people who drink red wine and eat a lot of cheese are the ones to get it. i dont normally eat cheese, and i dont drink. though a few days ago my friend from usa made me a cheese omelet, and he likes cheese so he might have put a lot of cheese in there. but still, you would not expect just one meal of cheese to give u gout.

its a painful condition, affecting my left foot. not the big toe, which is the usual spot, but the ball of the foot. it is only painful when i touch it or put my weight on it. it got so swollen at one point i could not wear my trainer on it, and have to wrap a plastic bag over my foot and  have to hobble to the bus stop to catch the bus which takes me to the doctor’s surgery, which fortunately was just near the bus stop.

the doctor took a look and said it is either infection or gout. and he wrote a prescription for gout, and took a blood sample. he said if the blood test comfirms it is gout, i carry on with the medicine, if not and it turns out to be an infection, then he will give me an antibiotic.

i think it is more likely to be gout. makes u wonder if we can prevent these things. looks like we cannot really, no matter if we abstain from drinking, or eating cheese. so might as well continue to eat and drink. no point depriving yourself of these things if u like them. i dont like them, so it wont be much hardship for me to get rid of cheese and wine from my diet. but if it has effect on me getting gout, i doubt abstaining from it will improve matters. i think we dont really know what causes the build up of uric acid which is the culprit. 

Gout is caused by the buildup of too much uric acid in the body. Uric acid comes from the breakdown of substances called purines. Purines are found in all of your body’s tissues. They are also in many foods, such as liver, dried beans and peas, and anchovies.

no mention of red wine there. or cheeses. but i dont eat those things they mentioned either. so for some reason my kidney is not getting rid of the uric acid. i hope it is not a sign of some kidney malfunction.

so that is why i have not been very active. i am glad for the nhs, i got the medicines, 3 lots of them, free. there was a sign saying each prescription costs £8 something. i dont know if it is for each medicine, or for one form listing all three medicines. but anyway they never ask me to pay for it. thank goodness for that. 

i still need to hobble about the flat and did not feel like making my usual trip to the library. i am glad my flat is a one level flat, and there are no stairs to climb inside it. i wonder if others get gout too, and that it is just old age catching up on us. for someone like me who dont have any medical problems, it really shows me i am getting old.

added. 7.09pm,  i just now read the text message sentby the doctor. it says the blood test shows no urate. so it is not gout. but an infection, and they ask me to go and get the prescription antibiotic. but it is too late to go today. they sent it on 10.11am this morning, wish i had thought of checking my mobile for messages from them. i could have gone to the surgery today and be taking the antibiotics now instead of waiting till next morning. i have noticed the swelling is much bigger now. 

thoughts of going old

27 Oct

london 5.50pm 15.2C  dry thursday 2016 sunset is 5.41pm

i think there is something saddening about a sunset, whilst a sunrise seem to be more uplifting. maybe it is just me, but that is how it affects me now. or maybe it is something that we feel more strongly as we go old.

i think when i was young i dont feel anything at all about sunsets or sunrise. dont think i associate it with anything really when i am young. just noticing a sunset if it is spectacularly beautiful and enjoying it. now even if i am enjoying it, the thought is always there that it is not going to last, and that the days of such sunsets are coming closer to an end, because the sunset reminds me of my days ending too. the sense that my days are numbered is there. 

i wonder if that is something that is quite common amongst those of us who are growing old… we are more aware of our health getting less healthy with signs of bad health cropping up. i dont have any health problems, at least not yet, even so i still feel this. 

vaguely we are aware the body is not so healthy as before where we are so healthy we dont even think about it.

i do admire old people who remain optimistic even in advance old age. the grumbling old person is not a stereotype. it really is what we all become sooner or later. ah well, it is only in a blog that i can say it. one tries not to say it in our normal conversation with others, but inwardly we think it… grumble grumble, haha. the only thing i try to do is to laugh at myself when i catch myself thinking like that. it is so easy to fall into that habit of grumbling about everything. especially about other people’s behaviour. so i try to stop myself and just fall back on my constant refrain, their souls wants it. that way i can brush it off and forget it. otherwise u can get involved in long standing disputes with another old person who is just as stubborn as u. thankfully i dont have that. but now and then u can see it crop up in the news of long standing dispute between neighbours. two old people fighting over something trivial.

perhaps travelling can make someone less introspective about their life. whilst you are on the move, u get caught up in the logistics of it, and so less time to contemplate your inner life. and the new sights and sounds of new places and things to see and eat and people u meet can be a nice distraction. i am too aware of it as a means of taking myself out of myself, to be soothed by it. i know it for what a distraction it is. so i shall not bother to travel to escape myself and stay here and work it out by other means.

reading i find can be a nice distraction. esp if u pick up a novel that carries u to another world.  

and there is the soothing effect of habits, doing things that are established routine so that there is an order and narrative about it that u can live with, without having to trouble yourself to reinvent everytime. and then to inject into it now and then, something that is out of the ordinary just to give you some variety. its quite  a nice way to live actually. 

 

 

old farts are such a pain.

21 Mar

london 9.12pm. 9.4C monday 2016

my friends are all old. so our conversations are about health, how one of them has diabetes. and wanted to go back to a cafe they had lunch earlier in the day, for their dessert. i said, but you are diabetic, you shouldn’t be eating suger. he said, but it is alright, because i have my shot of insulin.

so there u have us old farts ill like anything but still not want to give up our bad habits and prefer to take loads of medicine and injections so that we can continue having our bad habits … sigh.

old people can be such a pain aren’t we? but i am an old fart myself so i guess i should not sneer. haha. i am sure i have mannerisms, and behaviour that are just as contradictory and just as irritating.

though i hope i dont descend to this old man i see in our library. he is there all the time, and always early, and grabs the daily mail and hogs it… he falls asleep whilst reading it. i know it is a boring paper, but god you dont have to make it so obvious. and only wakes up when the librarian sees him and wakes him. fortunately i sit next to him, and he knows i want to read that paper, so he lets me, with the understanding that i return the paper to him after i have read it.

god knows, others who want to read it wont be able to as he then keeps it by him, whilst he dozes off or reads something else. haha. but i have got what i wanted from that paper and so i let him. old people !! how they can just fall asleep with the paper in front of them, what is the matter with them…? they can just fall off to sleep just like that, at the drop of a hat. and then other times when you  want them to sleep they don’t…

 i am an old fart  myself and i can see what a pain we are. i am just afraid that i might be one of them myself one day. what a horrible thought.

that is why i dont really like to befriend old people. i cannot stand them. haha. the only old person i can stand is myself. haha. and that is because i have not yet got to their stage of senility yet. or maybe i have but dont know it. haha.

ah well, i know i grow old, and it is inevitable, but i hope i keep the deterioration to as slow a rate as possible and delay that senility for as long as possible. whilst irritating hell of a lot of people without realising it. 

we make our beds

1 Jan

london 6.42am new year day 2016, 6C, still dark outside but dry.

i read garfieldblog’s post just now and it really reminded me that i forgot to send new year greetings to my family. i know, you can well ask, how can anyone forget that? i am afraid i do.

it is partly because i have long since not bothered with new year… i mean i tend not to bother with birthdays and anniversaries, and new year is lumped in with those categories.

it is i think one of the things that i find i fall into when i get older. in a way it is a certain selfishness that u see in old people… they go their way and no amount of reasoning with them will make them change their ways. i can see that trait in me developing…

i see a tv program ‘catherine tates nan’ about a loud rude overbearing granny played by catherine tate, and i can see she got the old man/woman madness really well. fortunately i have not got to that rude stage telling off people without any restraint, at least not to their faces. haha. but u can see how there are such old people and u begin to realise is that what we will all come to if we live long enough? or we get into dementia… ? both of which seem to give a strong arguement for euthanasia.

you know, they all say there are many lonely old people or old people who are alone.  and when u have dealings with them, u might understand why. they dont make any effort to connect with others, and just let all communication die of neglect (that is me i am afraid), or they quarrel with family and break off contact at a whim, and then forget to connect; or just like being unbothered with the problems of their children or family… and the children, or family not bother with them, until one day they get unwell, and wish they had bothered. or their children have moved far from home, to another country even, so things just left unspoken and unheard because it is too much bother to keep up.

all this leaves old people on their own, unless they are lucky enough to make friends, near by… but then their friends are likely to be their age, and they might find the friends died or got ill before them, and they end up looking after them!!

is that what we can all look forward to in life? so saddening isn’t it? and what a thought for the new year, when things should be hopeful and uplifting. yuk, i wonder if i should post this. dont want to dampen people’s excitement about a new year. posts should be happy and uplifting and optimistic.

oh well, it is hopefully long into the future that any of us will get that old… i have a feeling that is the ultimate fate of everyone who live long enough.

but meanwhile all the more reason to appreciate our health and life now and be truly happy and appreciative of it.

life

12 Feb

London
I had reason to browse the wine shelves in the supermarket. I was going to a naked sex party and had to bring a bottle. I don’t drink and don’t know anything about wine so I only noticed the price of these things.
They are very expensive for what is only 5%proof. £5-£6 average price as a rough assessment.
Perhaps it is not expensive for the wine drinker, but it seems so to me.
I am glad I don’t drink. Just think of the amount of money I save. Haha. And don’t ruin my liver as well.
It is the same reason why I am glad I don’t smoke.
In fact, I am not sure it gives me an advantage, my not smoking  because I found out I got emphysema. I got a bit breathless and normally just breathe deeply and that solves it. But just the once, I got really breathless, felt like there is a lump in my throat and felt giddy and nauseous.
And I got a small cough too…
I thought at first I got TB, because my partner got it 2yrs ago.
Anyway after a chest xray and breathing tests, the diagnosis was emphysema.
We have no idea what caused it. That is one of the good things about not smoking, because if i did, the doctors will not look further and just dismiss it as just a natural consequence of smoking. It seems 80% of emphysema is due to smoking.

Ah well, at least I know why I am breathless. though calling it emphysema is just saying in latin that i am breathless. haha. it does not say what is causing it.  
It is quite minor now, and I hope taking swimming and walking briskly will give me the exercise and that will keep it at bay.

I used to breath deeply to overcome the breathlessness when i get it, but I have found out taking short quick breaths is better strategy. So when I am walking fast I take short breaths rapidly. That works.

One thing about going old, maybe shortness of breath is just a sign of old age. that is why i am not saying give up smoking or give up drinking. as you see, my not smoking still got me emphysema. if u enjoy smoking and drinking i suppose it is one more joy to add to your life. haha. but if u dont enjoy it and it has become a habit, then it might be a good idea to let it go. in other words if a habit makes u unhappy, that is a good reason to let it go. 

Now and then I feel I should be doing more things with my life, instead of the routine that I have established to my satisfaction… (can i call it a habit, has it become addictive?) … going swimming, going to the library and reading the daily papers there and borrowing books; grocery shopping,  going to Chinatown, making variations like going to a meetup gay group in soho, occasionally going to naked orgies, going to tate gallery;but as you know, human beings tend to want more and feel if they are not doing more they are wasting their life.

So I read other blogs and there I find people going round the world, travelling, eating out and talking about it, living frugal lives, and how they work themselves out of debt, but have u noticed that so many of the things they do may not be what u want from your life.

Ah well, the more I read of others lives, the more I feel glad I don’t live like them and the more I find my life is great. So that makes me more satisfied with it. Haha.

I bet many reading my pages will be glad they are not living my life as they think it is boring. Haha. Welcome to the club.haha.

I think that is the secret of life. Your life is unique to you and the best life for you is one that you are happy and satisfied with. No matter that it does not conform to what they say a good life should be like. You can have a lazy day doing nothing, eating anything u like, sleeping whenever u like, reading a book or not, seeing tv or not, have nothing to worry about, and it is a damn fine way to live. Haha.